Dream or Nightmare?

Even though i'd forgive all people that make me hurt, i still feel the pain. I dont know where is wrong or maybe i left some step behind and i just dont realise about it. I've try so hard to wash the dark side apart of me, but i can still feel the pain. In a past few days, i dont get a decent sleep....i keep had a dream or nigthmare that haunt me forever! Oh please...go away all the dream and nightmare!!! Leave me alone! I want to feel normal again! I dont want this kind of pain! I cant take any presricption to heal this kind of pain except for keep asking from Allah.

Owh, i still breathing, but in a hard and crucial way. I feel like there is a huge rock inside of my lung. Yes, i'm barely to breath. and sometime i wish that i stop breathing, so there is no pain.. BUT, i dont want to put my faith in that way. I dont give up. I keep and keep asking from Allah.

To dream and nightmare,
Please..please..and please, dont haunt me anymore. Go away! Let me sleep decently. I cant afford to get on my life while you still haunt me in my dream. :(