When we are dying or have suffered a catastrophic loss...
We all move through 5 distinct stages of grief.

We go into DENIAL because the loss is so unthinkable we can't imagine it is true.
We become ANGRY to everyone,
Angry to with survivors, angry with ourselves.
Then..we BARGAIN. We beg. We plead.
We offer everything we have..
..we offer our souls in exchange for just one more day.
When the bargaining has failed and the anger is hard to maintain,
We fall into DEPRESSION, despair..
..until finally..
We have to accept that we have done everything we can.
We let go.
We let go and move into ACCEPTANCE

Grief may be a thing we all have in common,
but it looks different on everyone.
It isn't just death we have to grieve. IT'S LOSS. IT'S CHANGE.

And..when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad.
The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive

By remembering that one day,
Somehow..
Impossibly..
You won't feel this way.
It won't hurt this much.

Grief comes in its own time for everyone,
in its own way.

So, the best we can do...
The best anyone can do..
..is try for honesty.

The really crappy thing,
the very worst part of grief..
..is that you can't control it.

The best we can do..
..is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes..
..and let it go when we can.

The very worst part is that....
..the minute you think you're past it..
..it starts all over again..
And always..
Every time..
it takes your breath away.

There are 5 stages of grief..
they look different on all of us..but there are always five.
.DENIAL.
.ANGER.
.BARGAINING.
.DEPRESSION.
.ACCEPTANCE.

09-09-09

Cepat gile masa berlalu.
Alhamdulillah...still breathing here.
And now, there is nothing i'm counting...EXCEPT for...

My lovely series that i'm seriously attached with!!!!!
oh...I just love SEPTEMBER..because its fall people!

Here..i'm waiting and counting for...
13 Sept,Sun : Season Finale of True Blood season2
14 Sept,Mon : Primiere of Gossip Girl season3
24 Sept,Thu : Primiere of Greys Anatomy season6
27 Sept,Sun : Primiere of Desperate Housewives season6

* those 4 series, WAJIB di donlot ok! Since, the listed show only in US, I kena tggu sehari lambat dr diorg....basically every Mon, Tue and Fri I akan bersiap sedia di depan torent...nk donlot every series tu cepat2.. Rasa sedih plak True Blood da abis.. kena tggu summer taun depan plak...but anyway..ader lg 3 fav series menanti! yahoo..

And here a few series yg I tgk...tp x la segila mcm 4 series di atas ;
8 Sept, Tue : Primiere of 90210 season2
14 Sept,Mon : Primiere of One Tree Hill season7
21 Sept,Mon : Primiere of Heroes season4
21 Sept,Mon : Primiere of House season6
21 Sept,Mon : Primiere of CSI Miami season8
23 Sept,Wed : Primiere of CSI New York season6
24 Sept,Thu : Primiere of CSI Las Vegas season10
1 Oct, Thu : Primiere of Private Practice season3
9 Oct, Fri : Primiere of Ugly Betty season4

Basically, this is my life for the moment...x de benda lain da nk wat...
Maybe lepas raya baru seriously cari keje kaw2.
Kalo x dpt keje...mungkin tukar profesion...cari bakal suami plak ke. muehehe..

17 Ramadhan

Semenjak puasa ni, x penah lg post entry.
For info, i'm still alive.. :)
still x bekerja.. hehehe
now, i da berada di kampung halaman tercinta...bersiap sedia nk sambut lebaran. hehe

Actually nk share story sket je.. 2 hari lepas, i and mak i berserta abg i telah bercadang nk blk kg..kt peneng.. (bunyi cam jauh je..padahal 20 min je dr umah) nak cari seafood fresh. So, kitaorg pegi ke jeti sg udang....tggu bot balik dari laut. Then, singgah kebun utk kutip buah kelapa muda. huhuhu..enjoy pic! *bley klik setiap pic utk pertumbuhan gajah.

suasana di jeti sg udang. bersesak2 la gak...sebab tempat sempit.

Semua tangkapan di longgok2 je dulu kt atas pelantar utk org ramai beli.
sume tu fresh lg...x kena ais lg..
kalo nk beli, kena bawa baldi and plastik sendiri ye!

uh..ketam itu cuba utk melarikan diri. hehee

*di kebun*
kelihatan my mom and my bro yg tgh cari kelapa muda kt atas pokok tu
-tempat i selalu berperang dgn pacat!!!-


ni real kg halaman...umah tok wan
umahnye ader kt tgh2 pokok2 kelapa tu.
best woo lepak kt sini....angin best gile....almaklumla dkt ngan laut.


hasil kutipan di kebun
ader kelapa pandan, ader pisang, ader buah nipah

ni plak hasil tangkapan laut.. (menggunakan umpan duit ye)
ader ikan jenahak, ketam, udang, udang galah, ketuka.
nyum2...sume fresh2 ni... ketam tu stil hidup lg.

ketam2 yg di siang utk di buat gulai.
uish..sedap gler k. isi dia manis jer.

pic food x de... almaklum laa..bulan puasa ni...bahaya woo letak pic food
so, sesapa teringin nk makan seafood yg fresh lg menyelerakan dgn harga yg murah, leh la berkampung di rumah i ye. ;)
Ikan jenahak tu da selamat wat gulai n goreng.. really marvelous! rasa x cukup je sekor..
Ikan ketuka tu da selamat di bakar smlm. mmg sedap giler
Udang da wat sambal
ketam da wat gulai...
tggal udang galah jer lg....

Skang ni bulan puasa..harga ikan mahal sket. sbb permintaan tggi...
so, hasil tangkapan smlm x de la murah sgt.
overall dpt :-

1kg ikan jenahak
600g udang besar
600g udang galah
1kg 300g ketam biru
1kg ketuka

agak2, bape rm kitaorg beli sume ni eh? mari la teka. hehehe
definitely kena bawa baldi ye!